"Old King Jack" has Passed Away: Queen of France

Jack Aguirre, his son Tomas & Toby: 1970's

Jack was an honorable man.

February 1, 1939 - March 19, 2021

A man that did not revel in deceit nor malicious conduct of person.

Instead, he was a ruler of life's have-to, and life's purpose. At times a totalitarian dictator whether running his successful business or his family. You could question him, and he could even cry, but his ego was strong, so strong he never weakened into being a submissive, or frail into decision.

In the first years raising a family, he was young and restless during the late 50's, 60's and 70's era. Living within responsibility under an impoverished rule. Poverty was supplied by the system of others and he was resentful that he ended up, under their rule-set.
We left our garbage at the police station dumpsters in downtown Oakland, every few weeks, because there was very little money.
Jack wanted another life, a life to be a philosopher, and walk into eastern philosophies, "be a Buddha", rather than a mimic of another.

His voracious appetite for learning philosophy, was gathered through the martial arts and book gatherings from the great religions of Zen, Hindu, Confuciousism, and Buddhism. All the while reconciling with the demands of being raised as a Catholic, and knowing their world, that so many of his friends and family adhered to. He was tired of being beaten by aggressive nuns at grade school, thusly he never went to church or confession, an adult. Instead he looked for spiritual meaning through the eastern philosophies and philosophy itself. He was all about the dharma of who we are, and who we become; both in personal character and in represent.

During the the 60-70's era, he lived in the heart of mixed worlds. Where the Orient, Mexico, Africa and Europe meet; toting their gifts of person whether, Chinese, Latino, African-American, Native American or simply a White Caucasian from the European invasion.

They were all treated with fairness to my father. As children, along with my mother; we had a bit of a machismo low-rider beginning, with dogs and children all going on a trip to Mi Rancho for fresh tortillas, but that was part of our spice. We cruised Oakland in grossly over-sized station wagons, and I was always proud of my father, regardless of his angry interludes. No matter his tempestuous undertone that he held, as a bitter chip, due to poverty and life's injustices, during these early years, we were still his amazing children.

Young King Jack and Queen Mary;
with their young family: 1960's

Respect Respect Respect, not only from his persona, but from his ability to love us forever deep down into his soul. We were his family, his children, his gifts to the world.

Divisive children and their shallow begets, often squandered his direction. It was his purpose being our father, and he never let that go. His head-strong children one and all, stumbled and tripped throughout their lives, and Jack was always there to catch our fall. My father Jack, will always be the leader in my life.

Work Ego

The work ego, was where he was forced into distance and concentration. Yet, I knew, there would be time for him to relax and play again.

Drummer

He played the Conga all throughout my childhood, even with a drum he built himself with an old mule hide. That drum still exists, its metal braces have slipped and the sweet embroidered material that held the wood together is missing. Yet the drum still speaks, and he played it just a few months ago. It keep falling on the floor, so we switched his drums to bongos and he had a tabla by his bedside. He was drawn into the tabla and drove the city streets of San Francisco with one next to the gear shift. Sometimes driving us mad with the sound, because the tabla does have a heavy learning curve. Yet, eventually he became proficient, and he slept with 1-2 tablas in his bed at a time, as he studied and lived. They became an expounding element of Jack. Where seeing Jack, also encompassed his tablas, the drums of Shiva. They could not be separated. Even during his sleep in the heart of his dreams, the most magnificent tabla sounds would surround the house, in the middle of the night. Just last week he rolled his hands effortlessly over the little drum, to wake it up again.

Through the drums; all the work diminished and faded away, and his life became part of the rhythm of this earth's energy. Where the jungle and Yma Sumac would meet, in a high trilled call. He had ventured into Columbia all by himself during a dnagerous time, and I believe that trip returned him into a deeper understanding of who he was, in relationship to others.

There are 3 types of people, the people of themselves, the people of their family and the people for the greater good. All steps in life to better one as a person. His duties and love for his family was not the end, he furthered himself and his knowledge into supporting the greater good. Some people tap into the greater good, and others simply know it already. It was not about God or religion; nor the goals of the greater good only about being about supporting political leaders. It's about having a vision in how the world needs to be in represent for our future.

He was not as deep into the destruction of capitalism and materialism as I, and yet he never fought my direction. As if he knew I was right. The processed taste not only from food, but from the demands of society, and years of living around the standardized others, was sometimes difficult for him to break free from. He adored golf, whereas I prefer only a nature reserve. We took trips to the rose garden here in El Paso which he enjoyed immensely. "Let's go the the rose garden"

Jack's Old Age

"Old King Jack"
eating a sandwich:
March 2021

He was almost a vegan, aside from eggs on occasion, eggs from his own garden hens. His cholesterol had dropped, and his heart was strong, after years and years of eating rich fiesta food, with smothering's of cheese. For 6 years, I worked on his diet, downgrading the malicious fats from burritos etc, and moving him towards green drinks every morning. He ate all the time, breakfast into lunch and then more food, and he became thin, like gandi was thin. His body fat was normal, no longer classed as obese. Jack finished his buddha bowls, and fed himself with his spoon, the majority of the time, and even his teeth had stopped falling out, the loosening had stopped, and the dentist trip to Juarez from 2 years ago, didn't have to re-occur, all due to the white sugar reduction. He was showing all the signs equating to a longer life. The doctors want to call it Parkinsens, and yet it's something the Native Americans have had for the last 8,000 yrs. In finding a cure, in this decade of moments, I believe would be too arrogant a belief and yet I still tried through his dietary changes. Dried beets and kapikacchu drinks, with aminos, every day, and last week he brushed his own teeth, and his hallucinations had reduced with the vitamin b's. all alarming improvements, not failures. What a damn disease I call it. As the indian ascends the mountain to die with the clouds, perhaps it's not a disease we will ever be able cure, only learn to redirect it away for as long as possible.

Jack did walk that mountain for a time, even 16 miles in one day, just like that old Indian, who walks away from his home to transcend with the birds and the clouds, joining in with the spirit world to die. Yet, the mountain was filled with houses and cars, so his magical journey to the other side couldn't happen that way. His spiritual nirvana was held at bay, listening to meditation & mantra music.

His Career

In his San Francisco Office: 1990's

Returning to music from the past; Jack was an Opera fiend also, and regularly listened to Opera Radio, during his many years of being a Store Planner for furniture stores around the world. While working from his Mission District office(s*)of San Francisco. *2 of the offices were devoured by earthquake damage.

Design Styles for Wood & Glass:
Patterns and Concepts

Throughout the years, he planned over 100 furniture stores, incl. the design of: Living Spaces, Mathis Bros, Warren Buffett's Nebraska Furniture, Guildcraft, Fairmont, Sandy's (BC), Sadlers, Gardner White; and as well as, major stores in Saudi Arabia, Puerto Rico and Taiwan. Jack's last major design work was with Darvin Furniture, a fun store with themes all around.

I also put together a book of his stained glass designs, which include some very basic yet necessary concepts for design, space and structure. It's not only about the designs specific to glass or wood, but for design use on a much larger scale also. ie., a city center gardens.

Geneology Discoveries

During his last few years, he discovered he was also 15% Native American Indian, along with the odd fanaticism people have of being Royalty. His king line is vast, and eventually merged with my mothers,... "Queen of Capetian France", that I am. He enjoyed the topic of being a Royal but was still quite grounded.

Environmentalist and Collector

I have to insist though, that through life participation and example, with my mother through her years, and mine being an eco-self, we kept him in-line with the necessary calls to save our planet. From the animals to the oceans and the forests to the streams.

We were one of the first families ready to Recycle and Reuse. Possessions were kept, for that someday use, rather than being thrown away; and as I look at the 1000 golf balls in the garage, they will go into the rock walls and be kept for repairs, instead of taking down the mountains for concrete and mortar. Jack was a frugal character and a collector. He loved rummage sales and was often a vistor to the Pacifica Seniors Center.
On a side note about walls; mud with manure and straw and mashed prickly pear pads, has held and has lasted very well in between the cracks of the rock walls.

Generousity with his Time and Money

He was never a big spender for himself, unless it was for friend or family gatherings, where he loved to foot the bill. In the early years of his business success, he played with that money, and kept the many thousands earned, as hundred dollar bills folded in his pocket. They were the cash years and cash impressed people. He soaked in their reactions to the site of the money.
Sadly, most people need to be impressed, is who people have become, in this short journey through 30 million years of evolution. Even our ancestry from the monkeys tauts that want, where monkeys fashion their hair each with different styles. If you're not impressing others, you're simply treated as less and washed away... from people's fields of visions and thoughts. Making life a difficult and a stranded experience, even when the pure character of human should not require impressing others in order to be loved, cared for, wanted or adored.

His Last Day

Jack died suddenly from a fever. The fever spiked quickly and he was in a trance with the death racs until he died. As a child he had Rubella, and nearly died. Maybe the Rubella itself could be attributed towards his rapid decline. I don't want an autopsy of course, but if others deem it necessary I will consent.

My Life Change

I really wasn't ready to touch the computer, & communicate with people online, showing a work ethic. It's been 6 years of being Jack's sidekick and tending to Jack. We drove all over together, even to Washington State from the Bay Area, looking for property and visiting rummage sales along the way. In 2017, we moved from Pacifica and ended up here in El Paso, his childhood home, near his sisters and brother. Since that time, 2 of his sisters, Margaret and Bernice have past away.

I'm jittery without his presence, I adored my little Gandhi father. It's a tragedy to lose him, I expected a few more years of time to be near him, and take care for him. Just after I wrote this, I ruined the css on the blog, I didn't shut a div and lost the sidebar, went on an css chase, then one of Jack's guppies died, then deleted my html template, then the site theme of over 10 yrs, however, it's all back together for now, I reconstructed it again due to saved backups. Now, it's a day to bury the fish and wonder the throw aways.

A House-Share Commune Creation

Jack's clothes could be reused, and kept here going with my "instant plan" to cohabitate with house-share people, and maybe his other items, such as 10 pairs of cowboy boots and business suits, would also be useful to them.

I have to reject giving away to the Good Wills and Savers. Because my new live-in people wouldn't have to rebuy those items. I also have a small 11" jen kiln to create one small vase at a time; and even "a Singer sewing machine" for the move-in's to utilize. I have used that Singer machine to create canopies to shade the summer garden, it's been so helpful.

I know that my "Lures" are very weak, and the land plot is small and narrow, but there are young fruit trees, and a chance for: vertical gardening, learning to wall-build with mud, and possibly creating a mezzanine bedroom or loft in the living room, while spending time with my 4 hens who proudly walk across their bridge resting over their 7' narrow pond. As they gaze at the goldfish within and capture a drink. Perhaps, even as many as 5-6 people could cooperate and live together with me, in this little 1400 sq house; as an artists-vegan-dancer-guru-musicians commune, where, I already vegetable garden, and devour fresh broccoli, kale, chard & lettuce; even in this difficult climate. We could share the car, the gardens food, the bills, group purchase other food and supplies. where living life would become a payable event.

The New Baux Glass Castle in Baux, France

Meanwhile, I long for a place like Costa Rica where I can just eat Papayas all day and watch a colorful parrot fly by. Paid for through my "Catapult tax" and Large Estate "Fountain tax" *, that I've already held over France for nearly 7 years. The tax where the paid checks are sent to the Baux Castle in the Sud of France, directly by the proprietors of large estates and castles within France. I haven't checked with the Castle grounds, and assume someone could assist in that venue, in order to verify just how much they've earned for the "Great Glass Castle Build". I have to presume something has been sent, either from the rich requiring humour from me, or the simple truth and necessity for a great glass castle to be built, perched above the grounds of the Catapults themselves.

Tropical Botanical Gardens

Once I ventured the idea to create a Tropical Botanical Garden Greenhouse in the back Garden 16 x 38' with an upper hill of another 5-10 ft. and yet that would be so many visitors, I would almost lose any time to breathe. I currently climb a ladder to get to the upper level of the garden hillside, which could be further planted with a few grape vines, and sweet potatoes etc.

A Hundertwasserhaus

Creating a Hundertwasserhaus (Mosaic House) is another idea. Yet it would have to be sponsored.

Creating and Running an Artists Non-profit for Exceptional Artists

I will also stick to one of my first ideas of starting an Artists Non-Profit in Jack's name, because that's a real "dedicated career" for many people to bite into. Giving assistance towards fostering the future of the Arts. The math on was simple; 10m per yr in donations; approx 60 full-time, supporting 20,000 exceptional artists with either $500 or art supplies.

Running the "Robles" Youth Hostel

I've contacted "hiusa.org" this morning, regarding the possibility to become a Youth Hostel Residence for *longer term stays, (*due to Covid.)

Mini Headquarters for Peta

I've contacted them this morning, where 4-5 workers would receive free housing and utilities, and the mortgage aspect would be paid by Peta, with a small income alloted to each dedicated non-profit house-share worker. The sum of $2600-3000 per month ($36,000 per yr), paid for by Peta, would allow for the paid workers, and house them as well. Where at the end of my life, the house is donated to Peta via their Legacy program.

* Becoming the "Los Robles Sanctuary" *
a Mediation and Advice Center;
run by Yogis & Gurus; members and wannabee newcomers of Eastern Religions

In this way 4-6... to about 20 of us, would yogi-monk while house-sharing & gardening, working as a small non-profit, dedicated to offering:
Directional advice;
Sewing & selling; our newly created saris and hand-beaded jewelry
Record & sell our yogi music...meditational music with about 20 various yogi drums, shakers, tambourines, flute, harmonicas and guitars (releasing our Yogi albums) (only a sitar is missing);
Possibly creating yogi dances with our music, and performing as a paid-for events, for weddings ie, while expanding the public's curiosity towards eastern philosophies. Take care of and foster, Peta's animal rescues also. Selling or trading our artwork...paintings, glassware, pottery and even mandala painted seashells;
While offering garden tours while creating vertical and rooftop garden spaces.

Not a "Fortune 500"

Trying out "The Online Illusion"

On the way to Success

Finding Failure
Left & Right

with the "1 Person Attack Game"

Update: Aug 2021: This blog rallied true... the affiliate click thrus from CJ and others have deactivate my participation to offer click thrus due to slow & unpaid for traffic.

Returning to my original Blog from March 2021:
For a month or so, I've been sowing my oats so to speak,
in the online war of gaining advertisers, to display and pro-offer with due diligence their link into their illustrious online businesses.

Instead on offer, I've received so many company refusals, that one would start to believe that I was a serial killer, & they prefer to block me from earning a living.

My sweet little travel site is new and their slamming it to death. When I need their links, as their part of the sites value also.

As a site about travel without a link to a travel company in coordination, would be retarded. Meaning, that would not be offering a valuable content for viewers.

Even Etsy, a company that thrives of the handiwork of a single human til the wee hours of the night, for their own business to survive, sent my tutu wants to hell. So, even if those beautiful tutu's are "on offer" through their site, I will not be able to assist anyone in the "find" of them. Which is starting to crash Tutu Ballerina into the ground.

Online searching is a disaster for people sometimes, and it wastes countless hours of peoples lives.
My tutu and ballerina sites are all about being a directional helper, and instead I'm flogged for not being a major corporation, already received thousands of hits per day.

I've known that developing a web presence is not instant & competitive, but their refusals are stomping the foot on me before I can even begin. Insulting, to say the least, when people work hours crafting their items, and the online mega "mint sites" says "no" to this little gal.

Going into Business Debt? NO

Running for a bank loan, to hire 20 employees, isn't the answer either. However, these advertisers have proven themselves to be seeking that business stereo-type only. "BIG BUSINESS ONLY" is a welcomed link to them.

Like, they all go to the same golf club and made the decision, to destroy the online upstart woman completely.

Who knew, that offering a list of links to travel company sites would hurt their over-blown egos. They're attempting to put me at a stand still. A stand still to send me into the gutter. You cannot run and say "It's Nothing Personal", they're a coordinated machine of indifference to small businesses.

The question is who is in charge of this dedicated decision to ruin the little guy and gal. Is it a monopoly of dedicated workers that choose to kiss up to their mega corporation superiors, "Yes, we choose big business only, Sir."

Well, that's unethical business practices, and one that even the largest online company "amazon" does not adhere to.

All the while, I push their dejected experience away, and continue like the mad-woman I've always been on this internet, of selected dreams.

Down with Their Over-site of Our Internet

It's our Internet and not theirs to pick and choose what sites are the make or break. It's way too insulting the stranglehold they have on this Internet's direction. Blocking the little upstarts? "Not a Fortune 500? Well go to Hell", That's their saying, to each one of us who tries to entrepreneur in this 2021.

Then, I think for a moment, perhaps it's a lowly worker with an over-blown ego; only seeking major companies for their portfolio of "affiliate-links". What a cloud they too are sitting upon, making the rain on others, through their judgemental's of ordinance and dis-approvals.

What a disappointment they've been, whether a decision from the companies "book of Guidelines", or a lowly staff worker needing heightened acceptance selecting "Big Business Only". Both have destroyed the fiber of fair business practices.

The Vicious Cycle: Taxation & Government Debts

Windsor Castle, from my ancestors.

Money for Money's Sake

Governments that beg for our Workmanship

In brief, I will address the vicious ccycle of our World Economies.

It's quite simple, a Government is only a bank balance, either in debt or in cash.

When a Government goes into debt, whether local or regional or federal, it eventually has to find a loan or a way to pay the debt off. The usual methods are raising taxes, or receiving an International loan from another Country or group of Countries.

If the tax-payers cannot re-coup the losses the Government has over-spent in the first place, they have no choice but to go for the International loan, whether IMF or other.

The vicious cycle for the people begins as being tax-payers. As soon as the needy Government hungers for more income to pay the debts, it forces people to work more in order to pay off their own differential house bills, etc.

Once the people have become too burdened with taxation, and too much work have-to, their quality of life is greatly disturbed. The chance of corruption goes much higher as well.

So, living the life of Riley persae becomes a past illusion, and the people teter upon more and more Government hand-outs on require.

Governments going for the loan

When a Government heads for a loan, more is owed, and the Government will look again at it's people for someway to bail the Government out. The people are burdened financially and the Country goes further into decline as a Nation. All the while, the people themselves change their characters.

Character of Person

At first, it's not the immediate personal character of "accepting oneself as being forever poor", but rather, being one of the character's found at the insiduous levels of classism.

Where usage of a word from "garden" to "yard", means a lesser. I could poke at Britain with this one, as they've proven segregated classes can exist, due to very miniscule details.

Maintaining Status

In these structures of debt-world, the people actually do not rally together, only can they rally within their new associated class. The intense rise of snobbery, is really a beggar to many peoples hearts, and yet they choose to run with that persona for social acceptance, in the seek of their continued financial position and status.

When their status is disrupted or even before, they might discover, the competition that exists world wide. The competion to maintain one's status is brutal, or else be known by their peers as a failure. A castaway known as "fail".

When the world-wide competition has increased into "I have to pay my bills", the finger has to be pointed at the Government tending their flock. Then, as each "lone" Country cannot keep up, one-by-one the Countries will fall; because the efforts of invent and increased monetary gains cannot be reached by their own people.

Mergers

In business, they call it mergers, and well that will be the direction taken, in order the maintain status as a nation... A Dual-Nation is better than No Nation. Where a US-Canada would not be out of the question. The EU itself has proven to be able to reap from their collective habit, but with any merger, they too can fail. However, for many bundled Countries they have raised their status, so in the beginning, a merger can be a good thing financially for the people. Meaning less work have-to, more price fixing and a given chance to relax until the merger Coordinators over-spend as well.

Conclusion

The key is: to "Never let your Government take, until you're their minion. Balance that Governments checkbook first, and stop their overspending... or lose yourselves into stagnate levels of self, settled into a constant competive class, attempting the escape of a Dual Nation takeover.

Royalty Books: Capetian Era

King and Queens of Europe

In the vast assortment of books available via amazon; I've weeded through to make this collection of specific books, only on the topic of Capetians.
Monarchies, Sovereignties, and Royal families will have to wait for an easier affiliate program. Remember, one can't judge a book by the cover or title only, as some of them do have snazzier covers.

Others to seek out:
• Medieval France
• From the Reign of Hugh Capet*
• Sieges of the Middle Ages
*Kindle also

Capetian
France
987 - 1328

Capetians:
Kings of France,
987-1328

Constructing kingship:
Capetian monarchs
of France

Capetian
France
987 - 1328

The Origins of France
(New Studies in
Medieval History)

France in the Middle
Ages 987-1460:
Hugh Capet to Joan of Arc

Courting Sanctity:
Holy Women
and the Capetians

Isabelle of France:
Capetian & Franciscan
Identity, 13th Century

In the Launch of Another Website

Windsor Castle, from my ancestors.

My New Blog

Travels from Therese

Well, it has begun, another chapter towards monetization.
My Queen of France site "here"; is starting to get hits, so I'm going to focus further on my blogs, I've neglected them and almost lost Tutu Ballerina off into the wind.

I just lost interest when dear old amazon took away some of their advertising feeds, a few yrs ago. This time I'm dedicated to using many more companies, in order to achieve results.

No champagne yet! I still have to procure the right advertisers for my "royalty site", (that's a monetary pun).

Thus far, royalty books and even ecological pet foods for my animal pages, could be advertised here.

I decided upon another blog, though, one with less government, & more fine arts and travel related. The domain I went with is "Travels-with-Therese.com"

Next: to write blogs, html repair, and monetize.
It's kind of fun to write html again, after almost 20 yrs of being a non-techie. That first run up 1996-2003 almost killed me stress wise. This time it's more relaxing, & I've traveled to many countries and it's ok to go back to it.

It's like falling off your horse, and walking away from their online money scene, and getting back on the old horse yrs later. The html code is still the same for the most part, I added grid into my html rep. recently vs tables.

However, tables are sometimes amazing to use.
All the float right and left is too swervy sometimes, so hopefully grids will help out.

I did find a few ghostwriter travel sites, but I prefer to be a known blogger rather than a ghost.
So I prefer to publish my works, via my blogs; instead of sending out my writings of traveling leftovers.

In this afterlife of mine, of being away from so many things. Online publishing and success is so much about being in order and having organization, which can be a tedious chore of constance. Web careers are not for everybody, it's not a playful time, it just represents constant upkeep and adherance. It' a place that feeds on the efforts of workaholics until they become techie burnouts. The fine line is to not let that happen.

So, I'm going to post my travel list-of-places here, for curiosity sake, & Resume safe-keeping. One day I'll add links these to charming places.

*I've traveled extensively mostly in Europe,
& many of these countries I've also lived long-term:
France
Switzerland
Great Britain incl. Scotland
Ireland
Spain
Portugal
Greece
Albania
Former Yugoslavia
Austria
Slovenia
Germany
Corsica
Belgium
Netherlands
Kenya
Tanzania
Mexico
Belize
Canada
United States; States; California, Alaska, Arizona, Oregon, Washington, Idaho, Nevada, Utah, Montana, Wyoming, Colorado, New Mexico, Texas, Louisiana, Alabama, Florida, Georgia, Maryland, Upstate New York & Manhattan, Connecticut. Cities & Regions; San Francisco Bay Area, Park City & Salt Lake City, Phoenix, Ruidoso, Anchorage, Los Angeles, El Paso

Tears for Fears: over Online Advertiser's Refusals

Advertiser Refusals
due to low traffic

Tears for Fears

I'm not doing well on this internet of commercial links, here and there. & I've written about 3 blog-affiliate-style sites and no click-thrus!, meaning 0 money.

This time, perhaps another try that's all. Maybe poetry or travel with a click thru to a book. I think I'm reaching the end of ever remembering exhuberance, 55, and 25 yrs online have left me too penniless. I don't believe I fit into the pay-per-word writer sites, either.

Somehow, this last week my robots.txt blog file was disrupted into a fail, and I hadn't changed it. So, I don't trust there is any chance right now of me earning an income by becoming an affiliate.
I'll add on of their images and links to my sites now and then, but eventually they say I'm no longer their affiliate due to "not enough traffic".
It's No matter, that I traveled afar and lived abroad for over 20 yrs, wrote and 30 books: published, kindle, made artsy notebooks, learned 70 arias.
It appears what smattering of self I have on offer, is of no interest to others, not even in a click away from in order to earn a financial gain.

Youtube

Youtube proved many years ago just how they could block my site from potential subscribers, when they turned me into a talking mirror for over 10 yrs.
Along the same time Youtube removed my chance of monetization due to low subscribers. I was halted at around 70 fake subscribers. When they wanted to destroy a person into poverty they really did. I've aged a hundred yrs, from the anxiety they've put me through. I am feeling old now, not 55. The agonies from constant monetary refusals, has been trying to kill me inside.
It's become a "do" machine of learning processes, that haven't rewarded.

Forcing me with my only breaths left, to just be a bitchy complainer, when it wasn't ever my original nature.

It was too important for someone to stop me from expressing myself, and make me feel so low, that each day I wake, I can only wince at the hurtful chance, that I'm still alive.
Why am I given a life to breathe as thus? What the hell was I born for?
The meaning of life will not be found through me, only the beg for death to take me away sooner. The people are fake, trendy and superficial, expressing the same mechanisms taught to them on this machine. All the while, I've worked diligently, 7 days a week 12-16 hour work days with no holidays. Albeit my blogs may not be perfect & I have a few mispellings, but not enough to destroy a person on purpose. "Gutted". & I also refuse to sleep with an "SEO Specialist," as a method of "Help" in order to thrive online.

& The Winner is: ...Baking Cakes?!

No matter, if that's what my life has become. Somehow a lady who bakes cakes, can afford a thousand dollar camera, that doesn't require the brightest of snow in order to take a picture. No, apparently, she and many others earn a living online. For the bored with my site people: Here's an auspicious link to a high ranking Baker of Vegan Cakes.

It's a lose for me, the computer era has sent me into an early go-away. I don't want to compromise myself and link to more garbage that hurts the world either, so I guess I'll just lose, unless I try again, fighting though the smidgeon of limited options available for survival.

I'm tired of the machine, that keeps telling me; my words, ideas, and efforts are worthless.

Anyhoo, I guess I'll continue to write another post or two or three, away from "my indulgent self" here, that wants an income.
Don't bother to Wish me Luck, because I don't expect success anymore. Only a quiet down into life's final out.

Should of, should of, should of, stayed with counter mania or the big whois, should of. But there was "godaddy", eating up all the other competition, along with stupid business decisions from me back in 1996. I just continue to lose and the smiley ones win.

I'm just a consciousness against: their religions, their compromised selves, & their diligence to turn this internet into a constant sell-anything machine. & Yet, I too still require an income, even with all this mandatory consumerism.

500px.com and the Devil Shake Hands

Windsor Castle, from my ancestors.

My Advice To Never Buy Into 500px.com

Well, hello, they are looking to rob you 59+ dollars, based upon criteria too stringent for most to comply with.
They have an annual renewal fee, and I asked them "NOT to renew for the next year of services", less than 24 hours after the renewal fee had been charged.

I asked for a downgrade, as I didn't have the money to pay for their services. Instead they kept stating like robotic thieves, "Our terms state that if a renewal was processed you are not eligible for a refund. We processed the renewal on the 18th and you emailed us on the 19th after the renewal already went through. We emailed with a renewal notice on August 11th from info@500px.com to let you know the renewal was going to happen on the 18th. As you did not disable the renewal, the charge was processed. As per our terms you are not eligible for a refund."

After today, I simply wrote to make sure they would never charge me again, and employee "Dillon" who works for 500px.com pushed the issue into closing my account: because I told him to "get off his high horse" and "understand people don't have the money to pay."

Instead, he threw some kind of company intimidation email back at me, stating, that I had harassed him with discrediting language, (of the high horse), when the company 500px.com had just outright tried* to steal my money.

"Your account has now been banned and will not be unbanned."

So, High Horse Dillon who prefers to kick the impoverished, has run to the Mommie system of 500px.com and banned me. Meaning, not only did they attempt to steal my 59+ dollars, they also have closed my account, and removed my photography images.

Naming some Devils as... Bad Companies like... 500px.com

"Your account has now been banned and will not be unbanned."

I believe 500px.com is operating outside the US, somewhere in Asia, and the policy to not refund, or even offer a pro-rated refund is an unfair business practice.

There apparently isn't any safeguard in place to stop consumers from being robbed online, by these type of automated renewals, aside from issuing chargebacks.

Persons from this sort of company are apparently given no authority to refund money, and this particular company 500px.com was very ready with that hateful answer of "NO", you will not ever be refunded.

*I did issue a chargeback many months ago, but that's not a way to conduct business. People should not have to go through that channel for being less than 24 hrs to cancel.

The fact that 500px.com is operating without the ability to offer refunds is just unethical.

Pretty photos? Well they're not worth it. Be careful dealing with money-hungry 500px.com.

It's been a wierd new year for me. Someone removed my online art gallery website with hundreds of images of my artwork, that I can never replace. & Now, Dillon of 500px.com feels he has the priority to kick me in the proverbial alley of this cras internet, and ban what meagar photographic images I had on offer.

A rose, is a rose, is a rose, and now mine are all gone. (I might have a few on shutterstock, so go ahead and try to remove all of those images also, big meanies.)

It's kind of like a being dead already and living only as a ghost, my uploaded art and images all gone, only past memories.
The event of online data removal, will happen to each of us when we die. It's just not supposed to be a "kill the artist Therese", prior that time.

What a win for Dillon and the staff of 500px.com today.

It's time for the haunting of Ghost Therese; "No, she's not dead yet, so sorry she's still alive, she can still bleed, cry and feel pain."

Creating Central Banks for Property Ownership: @ 0% Int. Rate.

A Chance for Governments to finally Offer 0-Interest Mortgages
& even for the governments to purchase property for free along the way.

The Property Goal: is for citizens to buy a primary property only once, which could be sold & then the sellers voucher is ready to purchase another primary property. Similarly to cash, however...

Eventually, due to the 0-Rated Interest & after the Property Vouchers were inherited away, the property owner and later on their beneficiaries would be free from the tedious chore of earning an excessive living, to pay a mortgage. Meaning only the parents would buy a house, & their children would receive separate vouchers as inheritance, ready to use only for property. In the current secondary banking system, beneficiaries do not always use the cash gains for a primary property. Which often leaves them in further debt, to the point of home equity loans & reversed mortgages. Therefore, those in-debt agers, have nothing to leave their children, aside from a table lamp they picked up at a garage sale.

In the old days of ideally the father said: "You keep this house for your children and your children's children, and you will never be poor." Sad though because the father had 5 children, and they had to sell and split the proceeds, some went to pay off a car loan, others went to pay off tuition, and a few may have actually gone towards principal on their high interest mortgages. The reality is..."When you're feeding a high interest mortgage system, you cannot keep up with the beast, he is always hungry for that high interest again."

My cutsie voucher system, will always have the option for a parent to credit their children with "property-only notes". In this way they can't ever be homeless. Even if the property note "Voucher" is very small.
You see, the priorities of economic consumption at this point does not have any purchasing discipline. It's been selling, "Buy what you want without any thought to towards your future!"

The discipline can be found in having a "for sure" home. Yet, because we are a "democracy", so is the democracy of the consumer-purchasing cycle. So, the required guidance cannot officially be forced on the populace, even though we have so many with, "No roof over their heads", or "No chance to own".
To bring discipline where there is None, it can be found by forcing the inherited meal ticket, to be "only transferrable towards a property purchase" (*which could also be the same house of course). Then, the un-disciplined and/or person's frauded cannot destroy a countries economy, due to increased policing, foreclosures, property bubble crashes, and just an increase in degenerate persons.

Scenario: *5 Children inherit a 1,000,000 dollar parental home. The house value holds the final voucher, minus the final voucher tax of 5%, split between the children, during the sale only. Reducing its final voucher to $960,000 Which becomes, $192,000 each (incl. their portion of the closing fee paid to the buyer) from the million dollar home.

The $192,000 each, is split 50-50, $96,000 in cash & $96,000 as a property voucher. In this way, the parents and government are all content that the children are provided for. Only at this time can such a large sum of money of 50%, be sent from a voucher.
They can each either use their new Net Worth, & Voucher to buy their first primary home, or upgrade to another. If they already have a voucher mortgage, they can add-on the new voucher, and hopefully reduce their mortgage to zero.
The final tax is a non-issue, as its replaced by the buyers payment of the seller's fee.

Let's say, a "little rich kid" has a million dollar house, & his parents paid $250,000 without any interest rate via the voucher system. His only concern left, is to pay the property tax, home insurance, his food & utility bills and retire at 45.

The little Rich Kid", decides to downsize several yrs after owning the home. Note: during this time, he has only been transferred as the new owner, not given any cash.
In this scenario, upon the sale; he gets 50% of the million dollar house in cash, "$480,000" added into his Net Worth, and a huge voucher of $480,000. This split includes, the final voucher tax of $50,000, the sellers payment of $50,000, and the closing fee of $40,000 ($960,000).
He buys a house worth $300,000, pays about $27,000 in cash for seller and closing cost fees, leaving him with approx. $453,000 in Net Worth, and a property voucher of $180,000. Which is saved in his Voucher Account.

An Ecological Solution Also?
Absolutely, the world would have a chance to offer us cleaner air again, from the reduced pollution. Due to the fact, people would not need to busy the roads, and work more, as they've had to, during the past centuries. The truth here is interest-rated loans cause pollution and higher resource usage.

This would not be a future economic stop, though, as the future children and grandchildren may want to modify the house, which might require a builders mortgage. However, the tedious chore of paying a mortgage each, would finally go away. The persons could use their earnings in other ways, and those with limited earnings would no longer be a drain on the governments worth.

As most people would eventually become home owners without a mortgage held. A different wealth and purpose would elevate the people towards bettering themselves, to entertain furthering their education, attempt artistic endeavours, etc. Whereas before, this habit of bettering oneself, has only been able to occur for the hyper-rich & retirees, at a time too late for many to actually challenge themselves further.

Likewise, the citizens would all be housed, and the government could be proud of the property ownership ratio held by its citizens, bringing a new prosperity to the country on a world-wide scale.

Formation of A Central Bank for Property Ownership

It's a pretty simple system actually.
Ready to be implemented via my excel spreadsheet. Specifically for use as each citizen's primary home mortgage, with a minimum age of 18. Sellers with a current non-voucher held mortgage cannot qualify, they first have to pay-off their property loan as normal, or sell, then use the proceeds towards their Net Worth to qualify.

Zero-Rated Interest

The Central Bank of each country offers mortgages at Zero interest for the life of each 20-yr loan, for its own citizens.
There is very little cost to each of these country-specific Central Banks to utilize this system. The costs would be hiring staff to determine Net Worth, then also having facilities to keep track of the current vouchers held, and by whom, and for which property. Lastly, to cover a "few" closing costs for the homeless.
An actual monetary benefit to the government occurs,... from bundled final vouchers, supplied from a 5% final voucher tax, in which the goverment can use to purchase it's own property.

Impoverished Persons Buying Property

When a seller sells a property of a value $50,000 or less; the payment to the seller is given as a voucher just exactly like the normal voucher sales or higher priced properties. After the sale, the seller can use his or her voucher on another property, or save it for later.
However, as the low-income individual will not often have the $1250 - 4999 amount for the down payment, to afford the sellers's fee and closing costs, the government has to cover that upfront expenditure during closing.
Likewise, any person could also donate the amount to help the person purchase sooner.
After which time the monthly mortgage for the impoverished person is quite minimal at only $187-203 dollars per month, for 20 yrs.

The Property Voucher Itself

It's a carry-all voucher that's used just the same as cash, specifically to only: Purchase Property.
The voucher (account) is given to each seller, so, he or she can purchase another home with part or all of its value. A person can use 1-5 vouchers or even more during their lifetime.

The Final Voucher

If one has decided to not purchase property any longer, the voucher is transferred to heir(s) or a non-profit. At this time of the property sale the final amount of the voucher to transfer away to beneficiaries, has a 5% reduction. The 5% "final voucher tax" is not in cash, rather a reduction of the voucher's total. Thusly, the government is then given a small voucher, that the government can later bundle with other final tax vouchers to buy property also. In this way the taxable event does not injure the beneficiaries nor cause a need for extensive title & probate services. There is no rush by the beneficiaries to use the final voucher once received, it can be stored as a savings.

Net Worth: Cash

The buyer finds a house or condo, with the property value amount, based upon Net Worth.
Once the Net Worth has been determined, from savings, and associated market equities; a range of house prices becomes available for the buyer to choose from.
The buyer then pays out up to 75% of their Net Worth in real money, or real money & a former property voucher, to Purchase the property. The 75% of Net Worth includes some down payment, the Seller's fee and Closing Costs. Buyers pay from cash only; or cash & a former voucher.

Previous vouchers are included with the Down Payment number! However, the requirement of a certain amount of cash still remains, in order to cover the seller's fees and closing costs. So, a hefty 50,000 down payment could be reduced to only $25,000 in cash when there is a voucher with $25,000 or more. Meaning the buyer could keep $25,000 in their normal savings and not spend all of the cash $50,000 on the house.

The voucher is very powerful, and can be used as a constant savings tool.
It can reduce a mortgage to zero, when the voucher is higher than the cost of the property.
& as long as seller's fees & closing fees are covered, many vouchers will act just as a property buying "Note", with no mortgage ever required.
In the event, there's a larger voucher denomination than the property value, the person will receive a smaller voucher during the sale. The smaller voucher can then be kept as ones savings, to bundle later for a higher value property or gift it away to another or a non-profit.

Properties Prices Available to Buyers

I created the system to have a minimum and maximum property price.
Whether, a minimum or maximum price-ranged property, both offer reduced monthly mortgage amounts due to the 0-rated interest.
Also, more expensive properties than a secondary bank could offer,
can be purchased due to ones Net Worth valuation.
So it's a win situation, for both the buyer & seller as an upgrade process.
Bare in mind, the purchase price holds 75% of one's Net Worth. So, basic home owners ins. has to be held by each home owner.

The buyers pre-determined price range, is provided on the worksheet calculator, where the small % of the properties value, towards the seller's fee & closing costs is included.

*Used homes only, new builds are not included.

At Each Property Sale: The Seller's Fee & The Closing Fee

A % of the property value, in cash (wire or eft), goes to the Seller from the Buyer. (approx. 5%*)
& A % of the property value, in cash (wire or eft), goes to cover closing costs, for real estate agents, title company, etc. (approx. 5%)

If a seller wants more cash upon the sale, it's possible the particular house will not qualify for the buyer.
An additional calculator lookup, with the seller's preferred % fee; would be required for the buyer to proceed. Hopefully, that info could be run via an online chat room, or webpage.
"See if the Seller's % is too high for you!"
& the Seller's % fee would need to be listed with the property listing for "All to See".

During the sale, the Seller receives the cash & a voucher for the remaining 70-95 % of the properties value.

Repeating: If the Seller holds a secondary bank Mortgage on their primary Property: he or she would "Not" be able to participate in the program.
The Seller has to sell his house to someone who is using a secondary bank mortgage system or paying in cash; in order to pay the secondary bank off. Then the seller could buy a house with a "Zero-Rated Mortgage" from those proceeds.
All because the received Government Voucher is not transferrable as cash, to the secondary banks.

Mortgage Payments

Simple mortgage payments, are assigned to the buyer, for the life of the loan of 240 months, during the sale.

Savings Opportunity

There are many moments when the vouchers are not paying for property. During those times, it would necessitate a voucher savings account to be constructed. That option is for others to create as an add-on.

Considerations of Non-Payment

In these situations, the entire voucher that has been paid thus far, would be given to the non-payer of the mortgage, minus a loss-of-mortgage tax. (tax of 5% from the accrued voucher, in order to limit mortgage failures). Also the house would be sold to a new voucher buyer without any chance of the seller earning a seller fee.
No derogatories would be put on their voucher account, as they already would have been penalized with the loss-of-mortgage tax, along with losing the cash seller fee upon the sale.

Rephrasing, so lawyers don't need to be hired; The persons who lose their home, would lose 5% of their voucher money, which goes to pay the loss-of-mortgage tax.. Also, as the need for a buyer would be quite soon, rather than a sale at leisure, the non-payer would not receive any cash as a seller fee; only a slightly reduced voucher due to the loss-of-mortgage tax, for what they had previously paid.

Since it would be a disadvantage for the non-payer of the mortgage, to lose their seller fee and have a voucher tax; it would be better for them to attempt a house share, and split the mortgage payments with the new house share person.

To bring interest to the new house share person, the process would be to settle your current voucher into your voucher account; and then any new money spent into the mortage further, would be split into 2 vouchers, a voucher for the old non-payer who now house shares, and a voucher for the new house share person.

Government Freedom of Banking

Each government has full rights to offer Zero-rated Mortgages, regardless their current secondary banking institutions.
The vouchers themselves, are simply "property note accounts per person", that go with each person no matter the current property chosen. A transferrable note; away from the older style of property notes that were based upon a sole property only.

It's also advised for those secondary banks to reduce their interest rates to 2 % across the board, so there would not be too many property sales into the voucher system all at once. Bare in mind; Second & Third homes do not qualify, the voucher system is only for each primary home of a citizen. Therefore, for those other non-primary mortgages, one would have to go through a secondary bank as normal.

Finished

This tactic brings economic stability; creating a wealthier populace, and is available for any country in the world to implement.
Furthermore, there's no strain put on a government financially, by offering the 0-rated mortgages, and it also removes inequities such as homelessness while allowing for the chance to raise the level of persons; persons who are classed as a countries citizens.

The Central Banks Property Ownership Worksheet

The Excel spreadsheet does all the work for the keepers of these simple mortgage property deals.
It tells how much the buyer can afford & their price range, & their monthly payments;
then, how much the seller is actually paid in cash & the voucher amount given upon the sale.
I also included a min/middle/max amount that will tell right away if the amount of the property in question is too low in price to qualify or too high in price to qualify.

Central Bank Property Ownership Worksheet

The Great Gardens of El Paso

Mountain Herding Guard Dog

Imagine

Imagination is free, it's cheap to dream, just as hope is another idea, fraught without a profit near.

Yes, Today we can live in imagine, and think like the pirates; ready to savor the constant supply of edibles, from our own island of delectable fruit and nut trees.

It's all just a walk away for many; a walk out their front door as they slip into an arroyo, instead of a car seat, to tend the gardens of the present and the future.

Where is this wonder of the world? Is it a dream? "El Paso" destined into a property crammed outlay, has persisted as a wretch for the world to see. Another badly planned city, one that has no consciousness other than selling land to profiteers. Profiteers that build monstrosities so grand, that the mountains themselves look piteous next to them.

As man shows off his riches, burying his fortuned self within millions of years of barren rock, called Trans-Mountain; the others can only wait for another rich token of a male, to gesture them into work.

Little by little, the beautiful opportunity to make a gorgeous El Paso, has piffled into just houses.

A trance over the people, that the houses with very little amounts of land; are going to supply them with a life purpose.

As they lay their heads down each night on their pillows, with new bills acquired, knowing they can only continue on tommorrow; as the drones they've always been. Festooned, to survive their mortgage and carry themselves into retirement, hopefully with at least a hint of a smile.

Meanwhile, a garden dream is brewing. A collossal dream of a garden, so vast; that the barren desert itself, is pushed away from infiltrating our minds, with a fresh sting from the sight of another cactus.

A garden rich with fruits, nuts and dreamy flowers, a garden that tames us into the oblivion, of success.

How now? When all we see are houses?

There still are a few nooks and crannies, a few possibles where a giant pine can rise from the depths of an arroyo. A pine so tall, that the houses finally shadow away under it's shade.

"Plant more, you bastards!" yells a woman, as she quickly drives away from El Paso, forever. "What a lazy bunch of people, who didn't green their mountains!"

Possibility Lurking

"I see an arroyo over there, with no house slabbed into it! Perhaps it could be ours, another space for the garden."

How sporadic this garden placement must become, with each little desert alley, "demanded into the job", of bearing fruit for a kingdom of people, here and beyond.

When 5000+ sq. ft. houses have been built just for a woman to click around in her high heels with puffy feathers.

"What peasants out there," she thinks to herself, "to even want a garden."

As her ridge house just took up the destiny, of at least: 30 Olive Trees, 20 Apricots Trees, 50 Pines, 50 Grape Vines, 40 Fig Trees and 10 Date Trees.

Tear down those houses! I say, as another, "sot of an ideal", runs through my head. Of course! We could just tear them down, and make those "designed by a famous architect" builds go away forever.

Let's take back our mountains! Take them away from the filthy rich that waste away their idle hours; just thinking of how rich they are, ready to point their noses up, even higher.

"What drivelling swine", the house mistress says, "Clamouring for a garden arroyo, under her pedicured feet."

Taking Back Our Mountains

Well, the hope lays heavy, that at least one of the opulent is going to heed the warnings of the global call. That at least one of the 650 Billionares has heard of El Paso; and is ready to sway opinion, towards this city rejuvenating into a new "Garden Forested City".

A place where every inch of city property, along the mountains and the arroyos of its volcanic creation, become the "rightful belongings" of the citizens, known further as their "Gardens of El Paso."

Decades ago, there was a chance for a "fertile velt" that would have wrapped around the mountain, snuggled with it's own delicacies. However, now, we can only settle for a few inner-city desertified arroyos, and pray the land above the houses can still become "Ours".

Yes, and "Ours it is", the land belongs to the people of the city.

A takeover this grand is not only in our imagination anymore; it has a budget sheet of 4,000,000 trees (sd/sm/md & lg), 20,000 acres, with only $160 Million as the start-up. $32 Million each year, thereafter.

If more than 3000 people are hired in the first year, it means a requirement for a few more million. Dependant upon: the ability of El Pasoan's growing 1.2 Million of their own trees from tiny young seedlings, like the suppliers. Saving 3 Million dollars for more gardeners.

Then, 1000+ gardeners are hired in the years thereafter, for ever more. Obviously, for the first 160 Million, we could ask suppliers from afar... for a longer term pay-off of 3 -10 yrs.

No! Not so fast, a Bio-Diversity & Sustainability project is interesting, but will there be something charismatic also?

Yes! Draft Horses will live within the gardens, and be our helpers, as the trees are planted. Later on, the horses will pull our harvested fruits and nuts to their storage barns.

Yes! Large Mountain Herding Guard Dogs will watch over the gardens, as they tend a few exotic Brebis sheep from Corsica, while watching the hens as they also will be roaming free.

The Brebis will even nibble away the weeds & the lower branches of some of the trees; so you won't even need to prune those. Is this heaven? As their Fertile Dung, freely finds the soil.

Imagine, the bees & hummingbirds as they dart around gathering pollen and nectar, from Organic and NON-GMO fruit and nut trees.

Imagine, the birds building a nest, with a chance to test the delicious fruits. Yes of course, "we share", that's our Utopia; to share the pleasures, that our fruited & forested earth has to offer.

Hurry, and seek out a hidden arroyo, or a mound of a mountain, and claim your find, for "The Gardens of El Paso". For you, Mr and Mrs. El Pasoan, are the keepers of your own garden destiny, and no one else.

Spreadsheet link:

"The Great Gardens of El Paso, Tree List and Budget"

Starting an Edible Garden for Desert Arroyos

My Hillside Arroyo

It's a small arroyo, but heading towards being a forest garden;
where many edible plants and fruit trees can survive.

The planting routine; which could be implemented on the many desert arroyos already within the city of El Paso; by creating tiers.
Tier planting has gone on for "Thousands of Years", & there's no reason why El Pasoan's couldn't join in like the centuries & centuries of others.
From Italy, to Portugal to Greece to Spain's heavily touristed desert islands, some of the most illylic places on this planet, boast their beautiful agriculture for the natives and visitors to gawk at.
The City of El Paso has no right to forgo such an obvious attraction.
Not only Pleasing to the eye, but a sustainable agriculture within it's own city.

The Technique

The original hillside rocks are moved away with a shovel and a small hand-held fork trowel; Making huge planters, the sticks & straw trap the soil and rocks; & then drip irrigation waters the trees.
On a large scale, buried piping, so the deers don't trip... could hold also the drip lines.

Creating the Food Forest

The Pines & Cedars are simply Innerspersed with the Fruit Trees, providing cover and lowering the under canopy temperatures.

My arroyo so far: eldarica pine, arizona cedar, cherry plum, pomegranate, variegated lemon, blood orange, olive, figs, & a non-edible oleander, all starting out with a some new soil and manure.
Work time: 3 Days of work for 1 vegan woman (me, myself & I).

What the "Non El Pasoan's" must be thinking by now!

It's completely embarrassing, that the citizens of El Paso & the El Paso City Government have not been able to accomplish this undeniable fact of beautification.
Greening the desert in an Arroyo town; not only provides a supply of local food. The native specialties such as olives & pomegranates from the El Paso Region could be admired from afar also. "Better hurry or Dumb Nums will be your names forever."